I've been trying to reconnect with God for awhile now and I've felt dead inside for long time. I could give you the exact date I felt my heart shrivel and the reasons why it stopped beating, but that wouldn't benefit anyone including myself. But what I will say is that no matter how hollow I may feel inside, He is there with me, He still guides me in my desperation.

I was praying at work today before the store opened and I was trying so hard to hear Him, to feel His spirit alive within me. Praying for His strength to carry me throughout my daily encounters with the public. As I prayed I looked up and saw the cover of a book that had a beautiful tree with a the sun setting behind
it. All I could think is that I would give anything to meet Jesus under that tree, to be comforted there with Him, to be on my way home I look down at the rest of the cover to see the title and all I focused on was the word HEAVEN. It brought me to tears, for me I felt like in that moment God was reminding me of that promise I hold so dear, the promise of heaven


He must become greater; I must become less.  -John 3:30